Thursday, 25 May 2017

My First Birthday


Something really strange happened today. 

I was going out of my building to attend a meeting. As I got out of the elevator, I looked down at my phone and froze. I had somehow started making a call. It was to Mrs. Gaska. My phone was calling Sholly. 

I didn’t even know what to feel. So I chose to feel good; I chose to believe that it meant she was thinking about me. I could not resist it. I called her number back and I got her voice message. ‘This is Shola; you know what to do after the beep”

I called back over and over even though I know it made no sense but it just felt good. I wondered how come her phone was still on, charged and able to receive calls.  I decided to stop thinking about that and just let it go. I chose, instead, to take it all as a good thing.  I could have let my mind go in so many ways but I chose to make it go towards positive thoughts of how this could only be a good sign. Abi?

I chose to just take it that my sister was thinking of me.  The way she was thinking of me when she wrote this birthday message to me back then in 2014.  

EGBON!

MY LIFE IS MUCH FULLER WITH YOU.

I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR SUCH AN INCREDIBLE, PASSIONATE, CREATIVE AND 'REAL' SISTER.

OBVIOUSLY GOD KNEW I WOULD NEED SOMEONE LIKE YOU IN MY LIFE TO LIKE AND LOVE ME WITH NO CONTRACTS/CONDITIONS/CATCHES/AGENDAS/FEARS OR FACADES.

YOU AND KUBA ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO CONFIRM TO ME THAT THE LOVE I SEE IN THE STORIES ON FILM ARE NOT FICTION.

I'M GRATEFUL THAT DAD AND MOM BROUGHT YOU UP WITH AN OPEN MIND AND FULL HEART.
They must be proud of you. We all are.

YOU'RE COOL AND TOTALLY BAD-ASS CHIIIIIIICK. 21 WITH 25 YEARS EXPERIENCE. No be beans!

I'M JEALOUS OF MYSELF TO HAVE A SWEET WOMAN LIKE YOU AROUND.

YOU'RE DOING AWESOME.

I THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU VERY, VERY, VERY MUCH

Shine on, baby”

Even the way she typed messages brimmed over with life! All in caps! Who does that? My Sister, that's who! Larger than life herself. Oh Sholly! 

I had other messages from you in my Facebook inbox but all those are gone now. Thank God for this one you sent to me via Yahoo mail. Thank God. And I know I will still find that handwritten one that is even older than this one. Thank you Sholly. I have no words to express how much I miss you. But I promise; I am trying to shine on as best I can. I am trying to live my life loud in your honour and to the glory of God! I am trying to do legacy-enhancing things in your name. I am trying to be present for those that matter to me. I am trying....and I will may struggle sometimes, but I will not quit.

Bliss on my AburoChild. I will save some cake for you. Say hello to Mom and Prof for me. And Uncle Abiye. And Daddy. And Pastor Eskor if you have met him. 

No, don't worry, don't mind my tears. I have joy.

I am happy. How can I not be? I get to be 49 years old tomorrow!

What a wonderful privilege! What a testimony! 

Yes, a huge testimony of God's relentless love.

Happy Almost Birthday to me!

Glory to be to God!


Forever in my heart. My ShollyBabes. 

8 comments:

  1. It is well with you ma! Happy birthday in advance! Shine on mama!

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    1. Thank you dearie. Thank you.

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  2. Sholly has just gone ahead of you to a better place. But she does live on in your heart, hallelujah! Happy 'day after your birthday' Bimbo. :) God bless you!

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    1. God bless you to Ore mi Bunmi.
      Yes, she lives in my heart. All day,every day.

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  3. Yes HOW come, but God sees everything and knows everything. She would for ever be alive in the your heart

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    1. Thank you O. Elegbede. Thank you.

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  4. I found your page randomly on Instagram.Am so sorry for your loss. Heaven has gained an angel. God knows best. I pray for you and your family that you're able to find peace.Happy birthday to you. My birthday was on the 25th May.

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    1. And you took the time to leave a comment after reading. Thank you so much Prinny1975. I appreciate that. Yes, God knows best.

      And Happy Birthday to you too!

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