I am Salt. I am a Blogger. I write to season lives. I write to shine my little light. I write because I just love expressing myself, my views, my thoughts, and sometimes my angst in words! I also write because I see it is the outlet for my God-given "voice". Thank you for coming by! I hope you leave here inspired to be better, go further or at the very least I hope as you click away, there's a smile on your face.
Thursday, 25 May 2017
My First Birthday
Something really strange happened today.
I was going out of
my building to attend a meeting. As I got out of the elevator, I looked down at
my phone and froze. I had somehow started making a call. It was to Mrs. Gaska.
My phone was calling Sholly.
I didn’t even know what to feel. So I chose to
feel good; I chose to believe that it meant she was thinking about me. I could not resist it. I
called her number back and I got her voice message. ‘This is Shola; you know
what to do after the beep”.
I called back over and over even though I know it
made no sense but it just felt good. I wondered how come her phone was still
on, charged and able to receive calls. I
decided to stop thinking about that and just let it go. I chose, instead, to take
it all as a good thing. I could have let my
mind go in so many ways but I chose to make it go towards positive thoughts of
how this could only be a good sign. Abi?
I chose to just take it that my sister was thinking of me. The way she was thinking of me when she wrote
this birthday message to me back then in 2014.
MY LIFE IS MUCH FULLER WITH YOU.
I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR SUCH AN INCREDIBLE,
PASSIONATE, CREATIVE AND 'REAL' SISTER.
OBVIOUSLY GOD KNEW I WOULD NEED SOMEONE LIKE
YOU IN MY LIFE TO LIKE AND LOVE ME WITH NO
CONTRACTS/CONDITIONS/CATCHES/AGENDAS/FEARS OR FACADES.
YOU AND KUBA ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO CONFIRM TO
ME THAT THE LOVE I SEE IN THE STORIES ON FILM ARE NOT FICTION.
I'M GRATEFUL THAT DAD AND MOM BROUGHT YOU UP
WITH AN OPEN MIND AND FULL HEART.
They must be proud of you. We all are.
YOU'RE COOL AND TOTALLY BAD-ASS CHIIIIIIICK. 21
WITH 25 YEARS EXPERIENCE. No be beans!
I'M JEALOUS OF MYSELF TO HAVE A SWEET WOMAN
LIKE YOU AROUND.
YOU'RE DOING AWESOME.
I THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU VERY, VERY, VERY
Shine on, baby”
Even the way she typed messages brimmed over with life! All in caps! Who does that? My Sister, that's who! Larger than life herself. Oh Sholly!
I had other messages from you in my Facebook inbox but all
those are gone now. Thank God for this one you sent to me via Yahoo mail. Thank
God. And I know I will still find that handwritten one that is even older than
this one. Thank you Sholly. I have no words to express how much I miss you. But
I promise; I am trying to shine on as best I can. I am trying to live my life
loud in your honour and to the glory of God! I am trying to do legacy-enhancing things in your name. I am trying to be present for those that matter to me. I am trying....and I will may struggle sometimes, but I will not quit.
Bliss on my AburoChild. I will
save some cake for you. Say hello to Mom and Prof for me. And Uncle Abiye. And Daddy. And Pastor Eskor if you have met him.
No, don't worry, don't mind my tears. I have joy.
I am happy. How can I not be? I get to be 49 years old tomorrow!